„Kto napisze moją historię?” Szkic do portretu społecznego i psychologicznego Hildy Deitch / Who will write my story? A sketch for the social and psychological portrait of Hilda Deitch
DOI: 10.23817/olin.54-11 (published online: 2021-08-12)
pp. 165–183
In this manuscript I made the first attempt in Poland to sketch the social and psychological portrait of Hilda Deitch, a Jewish prisoner of the Sajmište camp in Belgrade. I define social portrait here as a description of physical features, types of family and professional activities and social interactions of a person. I created the social portrait of Hilda Deitch on the basis of photographs (a kind of memory carriers) stored in the collection of the Jewish Historical Museum in Belgrade, a few school documents and oral accounts of Hilda’s friends from the period of junior high school and college. Accounts submitted by Mirjana Petrović, Nada Novak, Olga Divac, Branka Milošević-Branković and Aleksandra Lebla provide knowledge about family relations, social contacts, educational successes, types of daily activities, interests and artistic talents of their classmate. I define psychological portrait as an attempt to show what is internalised in an individual. The description of an intrapsychic world is connected with the complexity of human nature. This refers primarily to the world of emotions, reasoning and associating, decision uncertainty, remorse, moral conflicts, power of faith or sense of spiritual void, finally – awareness and ability to create. The camp correspondence is the basic material for developing the psychological portrait of Hilda Deitch. The four manuscript disclose the conditions of spiritual and physical existence in a world restricted by barbed wire. In her letters, the author included valuable reflections on the manifestations of the inner life of individuals in the conditions of confinement, constant surveillance and forced labour under military and police supervision. The prisoner’s inner experience is dominated by the feelings of love, empathy and mercy towards her companions of distress. However, during the final phase of forced isolation which preceded death, positive emotions are replaced by extreme resignation and fear of imminent physical extermination. The social and spiritual portrait of Hilda Deitch was created using a conceptual apparatus involving photography, phenomenology, humanistic psychology, humanistic psychiatry and thanatology.